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2011-03-21T16:17:00.002+08:00

"Getting Into You"

When I made up my mind
And my heart along with that
To live not for myself
But yet for God, somebody said
Do you know what you are getting yourself into

When I finally ironed out
All of my priorities
And asked God to remove the doubt
That makes me so unsure of these
Things I ask myself, I ask myself
Do you know what you are getting yourself into

[Chorus]
I'm getting into you
Because you got to me, in a way words can't describe
I'm getting into you
Because I've got to be
You're essential to survive
I'm going to love you with my life

When he looked at me and said
I kind of view you as a son
And for a second our eyes met
And I met that with a question
Do you know what you are getting yourself into

[Chorus]

I've been a liar and I'll never amount to
The kind of person you deserve to worship you
You say you will not dwell on what I did but rather what I do you say
I love you and that's what you are getting yourself into

[Chorus]

He said, I love you and that's what you are getting yourself into

You inspire me

2011-03-10T21:48:00.000+08:00

Because someone made me think, i realise that i am capable of liking different types of music, apart from pop, rock and worship genres. Because of him, i can open my mind and ears to more genres. And so, i've found that i like jazz, Folk, melancholic music, indie pop, indie rock, electronica, alternative pop and rock and other obscure types of music i would never have listened to, if not for him.

So, thank you, friend-who-changed-my-life-forever. You made me an unbiased, more open-minded person-- someone i could never have been without you.

You know who you are :)

2010

2010-12-26T17:17:00.002+08:00

It has been a relatively good year. Had school. Had church events, holidays, camps and so much blessings from God.

on the top of my head, events that happened in my year. (I'm so forgetful, that there's bound to be something that I'll forget)

broga with school friends
bolt camp
PK retreat
fgakd family camp
sleeping in FRIM with school friends
CCC 2010 :D
koh family holiday in...
lee family holiday in melaka
hanging out with friends and cousins
getting closer to family and crazy sisters.
making TONS of new awesome friends. from everywhere ;P
all girls camp.
school thanksgiving
church thanksgiving
our skits (lit class)
jem abandoned us to have a better life haha :(
dress up theme days in school
taiping with uncle andrew and dianeeeee
satellite pastors' camp
teachers' day party
i turned 17
nat's birthday lunch!
jin's birthday dinner!
watched rapunzel twice in the cinema and narnia-voyage of the dawn treader twice in the cinema :D :D
GOT MY DRIVING LICENSE :D :D :D
did NOT get a boyfriend :D :D :D: D :D :D :D :D heheheheheh :D :D :D
discovered the wonderful SuJu :D and 2PM and 2AM
did carolling with the BM Sel in our church
started attending KUMON
and started WORKING in kumon
started loving math

haiya, can't remember anymore. agh. so annoyed with myself. The year flew by! WHY??? apparently it was cause I had so much fun. (according to my mum)

I think so too :)

anyways, THANK YOU GOD FOR MY 2010 :D

OHNO, next year is my final exam! :S *cries in a corner*

2010-12-26T16:37:00.000+08:00

I just thought that I'd better post something before the year ends. I still have so much homework to do though. :S (freaks out for a moment)

Christmas was very satisfying and fulfilling! :D The carnival was just wonderful! This year instead of helping out in the games stalls (oops, sorry uncle simon), I decided to help out in the jumble sale! It was so fun to kinda 'play' 'shopping shopping'. To be honest, I was trying really hard to sell my own donated clothes and my sisters' clothes. But apparently our style isn't their style. HAHA! So embarrassing to hold out one of my sister's tops and have it pushed away cause the women who were there didn't like it. HAHAHA... :P

At first the pile of clothes I was required to sell were going for 1rm per piece. Which was extremely cheap already. But then, not many people were buying. (I think due to the style/fashion of the clothes we were selling. hahaha. i'm just so tickled and embarrassed at the same time about it) Though one lady would look through the clothes, find something nice and ask one of the volunteers (my co-worker ;P) to hold it for her while she walked around else where in the building. Then later she'd come back and look through again. So, after about two hours of 1rm per piece, we changed it to buy one free one. Which was just like 50 sen one shirt or pants or whatever. But yet, the clothes pile was still kinda big. So I started shouting "lima baju untuk satu ringgit!" hahah!
Later still, I dropped the price to 'sepuluh baju, satu ringgit'... THEN people started looking at us and coming over to check it out. One lady came and started pulling out t-shirts and draping them on her shoulder. She picked out so many, so an aunty who was helping me sell brought her a box and asked her to put the clothes she wanted in to the box. She was so caught up in looking for clothes that she just threw the shirts into the box and continued digging. When she was done, we found that she picked out twenty two pieces of clothes. I said, 'aiyah, two baju percuma lah! merry christmas ya?' She was smiling and laughing and muttering to herself 'dua ringgit! dua ringgit!'
It really was so unbelievable. Two ringgit for twenty-two pieces of baju. She went off really happy. And I felt even happier to see her so happy.

About half and hour after that, my dad came and said, "the pile is still so big! You -gotta- drop the price even more!" (by the way, the reason, (in case you don't know) is that the christmas carnival is all about giving to the community. we only sold the clothes so it wouldn't look like charity or pity for them. so we SOLD stuff for dirt cheap prices. just to bless the community in kota damansara. it's awesome by the way ;P )

SO anyways, when I heard my dad say that, I started shouting "satu beg untuk satu ringgit!"
A group of three teenage girls came over about that time and looked shocked. One girl said to me, "ha? satu ringgit untuk satu beg? ya ke? wahhh!"
The other girl gave a cheeky smile and said "bukan percuma ke?" I just laughed and before I could answer, the first girl said, "ish, tak boleh lah. kesian dia." (actually i was laughing on the inside and dying to just say, 'aiya, takpe lah. percuma lah' haha :P )

Anyway, the three girls starting digging through the clothes and started stuffing the plastic bags I gave them, giving me sheepish smiles every now and then. I just stood there beaming and saying stuff like "eh, cantik lah baju itu!" They would smile politely at my 'weird' fashion, and put the shirt back. HAHA. sighs, my taste is so different from theirs! seriously! ahah Anyways, they left really happy, with full bags. As they left I heard one girl say to the other "wah! beg saya penuh lah!"

All in all, the carnival was definitely a huge success. Even though there were four big boxes of left over clothes. Even though I didn't get a free food coupon or play any of the games or even see any of the performances, I am really really really satisfied and glad to be a part of this 9th community christmas carnival. God has really blessed us with the success of this wonderful carnival. He made it happen and He was in charge over it all. Thank God.

Can't wait for the 10th year! :D :D :D

2010-10-26T20:04:00.000+08:00

Since I last posted, I have:

*started wearing skirts more
*passed my driving test
*gotten closer to God
*gotten closer to my sisters and parents
*driven to school and back twice! (and to church and back, and twice to kumon and back, and once to ahmah's house)
*made a decision to accept that life is passing by, and grab hold of life and everything it throws at me (while being joyful and secure)
*played drums three sundays in a row
*been nicer to Lauren (I TRY REALLY HARD OKAY?)
*bought myself a really nice cardy type thing
*watched My Fair Lady and Amelie for the first time
*anndddd.... uh, started working in Kumon! (marking math)

:D will write soon-- I hope!

2010-10-26T19:59:00.002+08:00

Hello!

Lauren seems to be growing up quickly to become more like Alyssa *gasp*

And why do i say that? Go to http://laurenkoh.blogspot.com/ to see!! :"D

601

2010-09-11T19:02:00.000+08:00

You know that sinking feeling you get when you feel let down or you think you're gonna be disappointed?

No idea why I have it :-/

straining toward what is ahead

2010-09-08T14:33:00.000+08:00

Okay I am back! Lauren needed help with something I couldn't help her with. Too bad.

I think I am quite self-centered. I am selfish, mean, shallow and much more.

I can't change. Not on my own.

God is a huge part of my life. It's just that I forget that sometimes. Which I'm sure is really sad. Because I can imagine God sitting right next to me and crying. All because I forget about him.

But then again. Isn't that being self-centered? I sometimes wonder if what people said ("if you were the only human in the world 2000 years ago, God would have still sent His son down to earth to die for YOU") is not true. Because the Bible never said that.

I wonder. But i do know that he loves me. It's just that i'm wondering how much.

I learn a lot from my devotions. I do, i really do. But I forget to put it into practice. If you know what I mean. Like I may read stuff like "forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead" then i'll say stuff like, I must forget what is behind. i have repented and God has already forgiven me. But do I really live it out? I still do bash myself up emotionally when I think about all the bad things I've done in my past life.

A side note: someone came and spoke in our chapel meeting in school. he asked "why are you a christian?"

I honestly don't know my own answer. I'm still struggling to find an answer.

kimberly in a state of emergency

2010-09-08T14:20:00.001+08:00

I haven't written in ages! I have even forgotten about punctuation! It's almost scary.

Anyways, I realised that it's good to write. Even if it may be utter rubbish. Even if it may be just a little, it would still be kind of beneficial to me.

Family camp ended! It was good. I enjoyed myself, heard from God, got closer to my friends and relaxed. I found that even though time usually flies by when you're having fun, time went by slower for me. It was great! I got to enjoy myself and also have a full day. Instead of a normal school day when time goes by even though I am suffering with my homework.

I don't know WHY I keep getting annoyed with Lauren when all she's doing is being a seven year old girl. I get so frustrated when she asks me for help. But after I shout or scold or whatever, I feel so bad. She doesn't MEAN to annoy me! Really! She doesn't.
I just get so tense and aggravated. (God help me.)

At the moment I am enjoying my school holidays. It's relatively relaxing except for the homework the teachers piled on us. But it's okay because I know now that if I don't work hard for anything now in my school days, I will never learn. I'm freaking out about my O levels exams though. All this talk about it makes me want to cry. But it's just another hurdle in life that I have to go through.

I really do have a good family. A family where we can play games together, talk about most things, watch movies together, talk, and lotsa things. There's no perfect family though. So we have our shortcomings. But God helps us through :)

I just realised that a blog is like the one place where I can ramble and talk about whatever I want! And i don't have to apologise for it if i don't want to!

i also dont have to care about punctuation! wahey :D :D :D :D

haha

also i can be random. Which is what I DO.

I'm worried. I don't have a plan for my future and people keep asking me about it. And I get so embarrassed and scared. I don't know what I want to do in my life. I don't know my passions, my skills, my direction. All I do know is that I DO want to serve God in my generation but I get so distracted! Distracted by material things (i recently spent a lot of money on unnecessary things and now i'm so regretting.) and distracted by friends, family, the computer. And i've been neglecting my time with God, my homework, my schoolwork, my chores. Even my blog! Sometimes I just worry about the wrong things too! :-/

It's like so much easier to let superficial things take hold of your life, than beneficial things right?

I wish I could write like Chanelle, Alyssa, Ethan, Mam, and Jeannette. I feel like such a bimbo next to them.

But again, this is a small thing to worry about.

I need to go now. Lauren is asking for help with something. And if I don't go, she'll just disturb me til I scream. I need self-control.

2010-09-08T14:01:00.000+08:00

My best friend recently got a blog! So imma advertise for her :)

http://www.thatgirlnamedjinyin.blogspot.com/

love you jinyinnnn

the outside =D

2010-07-27T15:04:00.001+08:00

RULES

1. Put your Music Player on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW OUTRAGEOUS IT SOUNDS!

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
gee

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
heartquake

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
the guy who turned her down

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
say yes

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
love should go on

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
the bird and the worm

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT OFTEN?
fight the bad feeling

WHAT IS 2+2?
i'll be okay

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
beauty and the beast - onew ft luna (HAHA)

WHAT SONG WILL YOU PLAY WHEN YOU SLEEP?
replay

WHAT WILL HAPPEN WHEN IT RAINS?
juliette

WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU DON'T SLEEP?
coagulation

WHAT IS YOUR AMBITION?
when the world comes down

WHAT WILL YOU SAY TO YOUR NEWLYWED?
hey stephen

WHEN YOU FART YOU SAY...
bodyguard

WHEN SOMEONE KICKS YOU; YOU SAY...
senorita

WHAT IS THE NUMBER AFTER 50?
best place

WHEN YOU WERE BORN, WHAT HAPPENED?
nothing better

WHAT WILL YOU SING ON YOUR NEXT BIRTHDAY?
boom boom

WHAT WILL BE YOUR WEDDING MARCH SONG?
brick by boring brick

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS CALL YOU?
run devil run

YOU HATE IT WHEN...
sometimes

YOU LOVE IT WHEN...
good luck

YOUR NEXT BF/GF WILL SING THIS SONG TO YOU AS A CONFESSION:
hate (i really don't like you) - plain white t's

YOUR BEST FRIEND CONFESSES THAT HE/SHE LIKE YOU A LOT; YOU SAY...
my everything

WHAT DO YOU SAY WHEN YOUR PET LICKS YOU?
dead at heart

WHEN YOU SEE THE JONAS BROTHERS, YOU WILL SAY...
one fine spring day

WHEN YOUR FRIENDS SAY HI YOU [SAY]...
victory korea

YOUR FRIENDS SAY YOU'RE WEIRD; YOU [SAY]...
monster

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
wonder boy

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
tell me why

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
get down

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
poker face

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
sorry sorry

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
one for me

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
superstar

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
help

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
sorry's not good enough

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
forever and always

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
you're not sorry

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
the sound of settling

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
needle and haystack

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
brand new shoes

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
change

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
i heart ?

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
over it

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
every time i breathe

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
me and you

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
the outside

2010-06-01T19:49:00.000+08:00

was just talking to jem and remembered this blog post by chanelle..

you both inspire me :)

love you both!

(READ THIS!) (i almost cried just reading it)

PLEASE read it. don't be lazy okay? =)

proverbs 31v30

2010-06-01T19:15:00.000+08:00

charm is deceptive

beauty is fleeting

but a woman

who fears the Lord

is greatly to be praised

2010-06-01T19:01:00.000+08:00

do not reinvent/change yourself for anyone except for God

2010-06-01T18:55:00.000+08:00

I wish I had a passion. Like photography, cooking, drawing, dancing, singing, writing, fashion or whatever else.

I WANT TO BE PASSIONATE ABOUT SOMETHING! :(

*pout*

2010-06-01T18:23:00.001+08:00

I feel so shallow and stupid. I think it's just a product of insecurity.

I can be preeeeeeeety insecure I guess. I read so many blogs and see the eh hem "deep" and "inspiring" posts people write, then I look at my blog and sigh.

But actually I think i don't like blogging anymore. Either I don't like it or I have just gotten bored of it. Or maybe I'm lazy. It's probably a mixture of the three plus 'i can't think of ANYTHING to write about!!'

If I write about my day[which I've done], it's sorta lame and pointless. If I write about what I want in my life or what I want to buy and all that [which I've done], it's ALSO pointless and it makes me look like a brat or a desperate person. If I write 'inspiring stuff', I probably wouldn't get my message fully across or something; or maybe it'd come out corny and LAMEEEEEEEEE. pfffft

I really don't know lah.

Please pray for my Grandpa, he's not feeling well. Also pray for Yen Yen (a girl in my church (who is 8 years old) who is suspected to have h1n1).

<3

2010-05-12T20:11:00.001+08:00

I feel very sad that there is no school for a week. :(

2010-05-12T20:10:00.000+08:00

Okay, so,

If I were to receive say, 300 ringgit, I think I'll spend it on:

a dress,
some tank tops,
a jacket!
music albums:
she and him-volume two,
meaghan smith-the cricket's orchestra,
taylor swift-fearless,
(maybe shoes),
junk food,
stationery:
some nice coloured pens,
maybe a notebook,
perfume,
a handbag

and i haven't yet decided what else.
oh! some books! :D
maybe a bible too

If only someone would just drop a wad of cash on my lap!
I am suddenly wanting to go on a shopping spree!

If only, if only

2010-05-11T21:55:00.000+08:00

I am too self-conscious. I am scared of what people will think of me. I want everyone to like me. I really do. So because of that I am self-conscious. What else can I do? I can't dress badly, I can't speak badly, I can't do anything I want because I'm too busy thinking about WHAT people WILL SAY.

I NEED A DRESS

2010-04-27T22:30:00.000+08:00

FROM ANTHROPOLOGIE

:'(

The dresses are so so very very the nice :( I am so sad cause it's so expensive and so nice.

2010-04-21T19:45:00.000+08:00

I have forgotten how to write. I keep sitting in front of the computer with my fingers poised over the keyboard, not knowing what and how to write! How lah, like that. When my exam comes I'd probably faint when I have to write an essay.

Bummerrrrrr

I feel bad about being mean and harsh to Lauren most of the time. I don't know why I get so irritable so often. I get irritated at being irritable. How's THAT for being irritable. Okay, I'm just rambling now. Wish I could do this more often in my essay writing.

Anyhoo, I'm excited for SPORTS tomorrow! waheyheyhey. For more reasons than one ;) ;)

UPDATE! on how school is for me:

School is going pretty routinely now. After four months. I'm used to waking up at about 8 and attending classes and doing homework, and seeing more than five people everyday. :D (that last part is my favourite)

I enjoy the socializing, and studying. Except for Chemistry (which I do NOT understand). But I can't quite say I LOVE LOVE LOVE school anymore. I just like it. That's all.

Hmmm, what to write about? Other than school, and school events and church and church events, my life is sorta boring. Heh. I haven't recently attended any parties or proms. I haven't done anything extreme or experienced anything AWESOME.

OH! On the 10th of April I went to BROGA! For some sports thingy. I don't really know WHAT to call it.

We did flying fox, rock climbing, kayaking and some other games. I went with a group of school people. I had so so so much fun! It was the best day of 2010 (imho). We played a game which involved carrying planks across cement circles in the water. HAHA I don't know how to explain it. I didn't do much, but I got a bruise from it though. We also played a game involving a big container with shapes cut out of it and we had to cover up the holes with parts of our body (knee, hand, bum) and fill it up. MY TEAM WON! And i had a circle shape on my knee for the rest of the day.

That was the highlight of my oh-so-routined-life. :D

I have been slacking in my devotion-ning. Please pray for me that I'll pick up momentum and be able to do my devotion everyday willingly and eagerly..

I think I'll post more another day.

Ta~ hahahah

2010-04-12T00:19:00.001+08:00

I think Facebook has made me lazy. Cause I'd rather type a short, ten word sentence than write a blog post.

I feel like I'm not doing enough. This life is not gonna last forever. And well, I don't wanna be on my deathbed wondering "what happened!?"

I want to see the world! I want to learn new languages! I want to do sports! I want to talk to people! I want to read as much as I can! I want to learn how to dance! I want to take a computer apart! I want to watch movies which make me cry! I want to learn as many instruments as possible! I want to do something stupid and not care what people think! I want to make friends! I want to sleep for as long as possible! I want to learn new games!

I want to wear a puuuuffffyyyy dress and twirl around! I want to go to a beach and make the huge-est sandcastle in the world! I want to squirt milk out of my eyes! I want to eat so much veg that I barf cucumber! I want to play dress up! I want to get six pack! I want to go to the gym and work out!

I want to run from my house to school! I want to laugh so hard that I actually FALL on the floor! I want to splurge on clothes and food! I want to go for permanent hair removal ;P! I want to see how long I can last without sleeping! I want to read the Bible from cover to cover! I want to hug everyone I see! I want to swim in the dead sea! I want to walk upside down! I want to smell the best smell in the world!

I want to play with snow! I want to go to The US of A! I want to experience God's touch! I want to spend time with someone I love! I want to LIVE MY LIFE without people telling me what I should do.

I want to experience just letting God lead me wherever.

I want to be able to say what I want without CARING about my sisters laughing at me.

OH YEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAH. :D

2010-04-03T18:05:00.000+08:00

I want to make him proud of me.

Will he ever call me 'beautiful'? Will he ever call me 'smart'?

I want to be loved as much as them

i -want- to cry

2010-04-03T18:03:00.000+08:00

I want to make a difference in some way or other in this life. I want to be able to leave this earth knowing that I have done something worthwhile in my life. Whether I die at a ripe old age of 80 or whenever God wants to take me.

I don't think I could bear the thought of dying without anything for people to remember me by.

I sit around doing nothing and wonder, why am I wasting my time?

God help me. Help me make you proud.

2010-03-09T17:57:00.001+08:00

The reason why I love this blog so much is that it makes me think. Also it gives me lots of inspiration to write.

=D

2010-03-09T17:50:00.000+08:00

Someone once asked me what I do when I'm emo.

Well, it depends.

If I don't want to snap out of it I would just drown myself in my despondency. Numbness takes over, and I sink deeper into my sorrow.

on another note:

I suddenly feel very happy! :D heheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheheehehehehe

i just like this picture. it's really cool

2010-03-04T19:23:00.001+08:00

2010-03-04T19:18:00.000+08:00

my mind is like a time bomb

.......

sometimes i just don't think it's funny. so please don't think that i'm offended just 'cause i'm not laughing

2010-03-04T19:14:00.000+08:00

Lord Jesus, help me to love those who seem unlovable.
God please, I need your love to overflow out of me. I need your help because I cannot tolerate with my own strength anymore. Oh God, many times I feel such disgust for some people and I feel so guilty after that. Please please please help me. Help me to love, and to be nice to these people. Help me to love just as you love.

Amen

i get my inspiration from other people's blogs

2010-03-04T19:04:00.000+08:00

i used to think that siblings who could get along were weird and pretty much unreal. see blog which gave me inspiration!

Maaaaan, when i was younger, my sisters and i would fight about the stupidest things. Like if one sister accidentally hit another sister on the shoulder, the 'hit' sister would start this huge fight and so we'd hit each other back either until one cried or my mum stopped us.

Just thinking about it I blush. How terribly stupid! Now I think siblings who don't interact or look each other in the eye or just can't get along, are weird.

Cause right now, I love my sisters and am really really really glad i have them as my siblings. I wouldn't trade them for all the macbooks in the world or lucas till! :)

really!

wait, but if lucas till asked me to abandon my sisters for him, i think i'd say ~~okay~~ NO WAY

2010-03-04T18:42:00.000+08:00

ah! i miss listening to jesse mccartney :) heh,

such bubblegum-teen-pop hahah

"stupid girl, i should've known, i should've known"

2010-03-04T18:40:00.001+08:00

i feel extremely stupid most of the time.

and it's all my fault anyway.

i'm not really one who is open to learning. i think i better change this mindset.

*sigh*

Chemistry gives me a headache and after chem class my mind is blank. seriously. and well, this makes me feel stupid again. [anyone can give me chemisty tuition?] when alyssa speaks i feel like a downright idiot. but i am anyway.

i like maths! i really do. i hate drawing graphs, but only if there are a lot to draw. otherwise i think i don't mind doing two or three for fun. i look forward to both the add math and mod math classes.

saturday is gonna be an awesomely busy day for me. can't wait to be disorientated

i am feeling terribly random. i think i shall go and disturb christen now :D

2010-02-26T02:12:00.002+08:00

I've realised that life is short, and well, my blog isn't gonna live forever.

2010-02-26T02:11:00.000+08:00

One day in the working world OUT THERE *rolls eyes*, there WILL be people who will twist your words, or cram words you never even thought into your mouth. There will be lousy people who will play Judas and kill your reputation.

So just deal with it.

I think I need more training in this area. I need to hang out with back-stabbers, liars, bums and people who tear others down with their words. Just so I could develop patience, understanding and wisdom to know what to do in future situations. :D

2010-02-26T02:04:00.000+08:00

People say Owl City's and Taylor Swift's songs all sound the same.

I agree but I disagree.

I guess I like them because I like the style of their music.

SO WHAT?

2010-02-16T21:58:00.002+08:00

I desperately want to update my blog, but i have no idea with what

vroom vroom

2010-02-16T21:58:00.000+08:00

I am finally allowed to learn how to drive! :D

But now the thing is, will i want to?

On an unrelated note,

Because of Jeannette Goon, I'm now thinking of deactivating my facebook account.

And another unrelated note,

The media makes me want things I KNOW i can't have.

2010-02-13T10:49:00.003+08:00

Lauren just walked up to me and said : Eh, I just realised! It's going to be chinese new year tomorrow!

Then she walked away

2010-02-13T10:49:00.000+08:00

I want to learn how to drive.

PLEASE???

i'm not a racist

2010-02-12T16:04:00.000+08:00

it's finally the holidays!

i'm not sure if i'm happy or sad. hm

but i DO know that i'm excited for yee sang, cousins, food, money, cookies, RED, oranges and playing cards!

i'm so thankful that i can experience this every year. being chinese has its benefits i guess.

2010-02-09T08:44:00.001+08:00

i really did want an edward cullen bobblehead

2010-02-09T08:40:00.001+08:00

It started as a day of great anticipation. My head was high and my heart started to beat faster and faster. I brushed my teeth with intense joy. I couldn't stop smiling. Then, I walked into the room and realised that my hopes were dashed as I noticed that what I wanted wasn't there. I waited a while and hoped that what I saw wasn't real. After 2 minutes, I shrugged it off and decided that it was going to be a boring and sad day.

Until-- lunch

9th Feb 2010

2010-02-09T08:35:00.000+08:00

Well, the dreaded day ended, and I survived!

On an unrelated note.

THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS STUPID FREEDOM OF SPEECH!

23rd Jan 2010 :)

2010-01-23T10:07:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOODNESS.

I just realised.

13 more days! TOOOO FAST!

Uh oh. I am NOT prepared!

What should I do? How do I prepare? It's gonna change my life forever!

AHHH! Someone! Quick! Give me a sleeping pill so that I can sleep and only wake up after the DAY has passed!

Wahey

2010-01-23T09:53:00.000+08:00

School is pretty great.

STILL.

I like math now. Now how about -that-!

I feel bad for kind of being a traitor to all those homeschoolers [and some schoolers] who I had rant with saying "Math sucks right? Seriously! I hate math so so bad. I wish it would die."

Well, I have finally seen the light and numbers! Finally math is understandable, (a leeeeetle easier), enjoyable and just so fun!

Wahey

2010-01-23T09:48:00.000+08:00

Every time you smile, I smile
And every time you shine, I'll shine for you

Whoa oh
I'm feeling you baby
Don't be afraid to jump then fall,
Jump then fall into me

Be there, I'm never gonna leave you,
Say that you wanna be with me too
'Cause I'mma gonna stay through it all so jump then fall

Be there, I'm never gonna leave you,
Say that you wanna be with me too
'Cause I'mma gonna stay through it all so jump then fall Jump then fall, jump then fall into me

every time you smile, I smile
and every time you shine, I'll shine
and every time you're here baby, I'll show you, I'll show you
you can jump then fall, jump then fall, jump then fall into me, into me

how appropriate!

2010-01-21T21:42:00.000+08:00

We've walked together down this winding road,
In search of something true. Together we grew.

But now our journey has come to an end,
And it's on to something new. For me and you.

So goodbye, my friend.
Until we meet again,
Some other day.
I know so much will change.
But looking back I can say,
I wouldn't change a day.
I hope you can say, I hope you can say
The same.

So many memories, we got to make,
The challenges we met. I'll never forget.

'cause those lessons made us who we are today,
Now we're taking the next step. Without a regret.
No regret.

So goodbye, my friend.
Until we meet again,
Some other day.
I know so much will change.
But looking back I can say,
I wouldn't change a day.
I hope you can say, I hope you can say
I hope you can say,
The same.

All I'm telling you (All I'm telling you)
'til I get to the end. I would do it again. Do it again

i'd cry if i hadn't already used up all my tears

2010-01-18T17:19:00.000+08:00

My dearest Jeremy Khane Duke,

Thank you. Thank you for being a part of my life and family. Thank you for your jokes and stories and laughter. We will write legends about you. :)

I hope and pray that you will have a good life over there in the country I now hate. I hope you will have a great and bright future ahead of you. You are a very smart and wise boy (or man. you choose). I know you well enough to say that you will not fail in life. I pray that you will continue to grow in God and continue to serve Him.

Don't forget me. Come back to visit as often as possible.

I will miss you running into church late, and telling me the stupidest and randomest things, and your lame apologies, and your silly 'if you were on a deserted island' questions, and just everything about you. Please visit and introduce me to your future wife. If possible, name one of your children after me ;)

Take care of your parents and don't be mean to them.hee... Make new friends and try not to miss me so much. I'll understand. ;P Be good and pay attention in class. Work hard and send us some aussie money back to go visit you. Take good care of yourself and don't drink and drive.

Try not to go clubbing and drinking. Cause I wouldn't want you to come back and influence me xD

Please don't change too much okay? I like you the way you are.

Love you with the 'passion of a thousand suns'.

Your younger sister, Kim

i absolutely love this picture (credits to my darling diane lee sook kuan)

2010-01-18T17:07:00.000+08:00

Honja dasi tto MISSING FOR YOU

2010-01-04T19:51:00.001+08:00

oh no! the koh sisters are singing korean songs!

uh oh. we're turning into mini-daphne's xD

2010-01-04T19:49:00.000+08:00

Today was the first day of school.

Oh my gosh. I'm gonna be seventeen this year. SEVENTEEN! AH!

I can't believe it!

Anyway back to my first day of school.

Well, it was uneventful except for christen being in pre-o in the room nearby ours; my fruit falling on the floor and me having to wash it; me and nat raving about BOF; some PEOPLE stealing my stuff *cough* ~~andyandnigel~~ *cough*; and elliot contaminating my sweets.

I was very sleepy today. I almost fell asleep when the teacher was talking about conglomerate mergers and stuff. Lunch was good. POk! :D yum yum.

Then I when i came home, i did my devotion and then fell asleep haha

I actually can't wait for tomorrow. but it's BM. :( gaaaaah. my most embarrassing subject. :O

LEEMINHO!

HAHAHAHA. TANIAAAAAA! it's LEEMINHO lah

2010-01-02T21:31:00.001+08:00

And you will seek Me and find Me,
when you search for Me with all your heart.

Jeremiah 29:13

2010-01-02T20:10:00.002+08:00

i define a good movie and a good book by how much it makes me feel

thanks jeannette

oops

2010-01-02T02:23:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY to:

Jin Yin(10th dec)
Mama(23rd dec)
Kemuel(28th dec)
Elliot(31st dec)
Shannon(1st jan)

2010-01-02T02:03:00.000+08:00

yes yes, very cliched.

i know, i know, why bother, right?

but i want to.

i really do.

and i'mma gonna try really reeeaaaally hard to keep em.

k?

my 2010 resolutions! wheeheeeheee! :D (i'm gonna try to keep em as realistic as possible!)

grumble and complain less
do not worry about when i will eat or be clothed
get closer to sisters and appreciate them more
be nicer to people around me (and NOT fake it)
be open to black and white movies, international movies (and tv dramas ;P) and music from the 30's, 40's, 50's, 60's, 70's, 80's and 90's
stop wanting a[n imaginary] boyfriend like gu jun pyo(BOF), jacob black(NEWMOON) and guy woodham(FROMETOYOU)
stop ordering people to do things. just stop being bossy. it's annoying
study harder
avoid facebooking
don't spend so much money on unnecessary things (stop watching movies in the cinema and buying clothes)
ask more questions
do things and choose things without regrets
learn from all mistakes, whether my own or other's
laugh and cry more
enjoy turning 17
hug parents and grandparents more-- to show them how much i love them
read more, watch tv less
practice drums more
spend more time with God than anyone else
don't care about what people think of how i dress, speak and act-- stop being so darn self conscious

2010-01-01T18:07:00.001+08:00

I define a good movie and a good book by how much I laugh and how much I cry.

2010-01-01T17:48:00.001+08:00

I nag
I command/demand
I'm selfish
I don't laugh at lame jokes (which spoil everything)
I interuppt when someone is telling a story i'd already heard
I'd choose my family over my friends
I get jealous easily
I eat a lot and eat quite disgustingly
My tastes vary quite a bit (food, clothes, boys, movies, music etc)
I'm not good at sensing things about anyone
I get guilty really, really easily
I'm mean to my sisters
I rant
I rave (like A LOT like really really really really reeeaaaaalllleeeeeee a LOT)
I'm a pig

yeah i wouldn't want to be my friend either...

new doesn't mean good you know.

2010-01-01T17:46:00.000+08:00

Well!

____[fill it in yourself lah ugh]____ NEW YEAR!

I have been dreading 2010 and have been doing everything in my power to stop it from coming, but bummer. Nothing worked. Shutting my eyes and screaming didn't help. Crying didn't either. Using my mind to blow up the 2010 calendar we got for free didn't either. So I guess I gotta 'gracefully slide' into 2010 and pray that I will learn to love 2010 as best I can.

2010.

GRRRR.

Reasons why I am not looking forward to this year:

I'll be turning seventeen this year. [WHY WHY WHY!?!? I have always said how much I wanted to 'grow up' and get old... blah blah blah. How totally stupid of me.]
Jem is abandoning the sisterhood and his homeland
My studies are gonna get tougher
I will find out whether I'm chosen for NS or not
I'm gonna have to start thinking about college
My 'video ezy-er' (;P) is leaving for the US of A
Alyssa is probably gonna be taller than me this year
Malaysia is getting worse

Right now, i can't really think of any more reasons, so this will do for now.

i love my parents

2009-12-22T12:30:00.001+08:00

they scold me when i'm wrong, and sometimes when i'm not.

they say no to lotsa things, but yes to lots too.

they lecture me when i do something wrong or say something wrong, but they hug me and show me they care.

they don't hear what i say most of the time, but then again, they've been listening to me ever since i started rambling! (whoa, they're good.)

they make me do my chores, but they take my sisters and i out to 'spensive dinners occasionally.

they laugh at me, but they laugh with me too

they frown at some of my jokes, but sometimes they laugh so hard, i get all proud of myself for remembering the joke

they get on my nerves sometimes, but i know i get on theirs just as much

they don't spoil me, but sometimes i do get what i want

they don't let me stay overnight on saturdays, but they take me out for movies and let me go out with friends.

they aren't perfect, but i love them more cause they're not.

oh habits die hard when you got when you got a setimental heart.

2009-12-18T20:58:00.001+08:00

I hate that time passes.

I used to love that time passed.

It sucks to know that you're getting old and your friends are too.

I hate that I'm not 12 or 7 anymore. I don't want to be 17. I really really don't.

I dread 2010. And it's mostly because of the horrible ghastly word 'change'.

Ugh how I hate it.

Change stinks.

(change is hard-she&him)
I did him wrong.
So don't brag, keep it to yourself.
I did him wrong.

I can try, I can try, to toughen up.

I listened when they told me
If if burns you let it go

Change is hard, I should know

stick men are crazy

2009-12-18T20:45:00.001+08:00

My mind is a mess.

I have thoughts all over the place. They look like tiny flustered and hectic people. Going insane.

My thoughts are tiny stick men.

Some thoughts are sprawled out on the floor, singing out of tune.

Some thoughts are dancing around like there's no tomorrow.

Some thoughts are running around with no purpose.

Some thoughts are bawling their eyes out.

Some thoughts are jumping for joy.

Some thoughts are in fetal position, rocking themselves to sleep.

Some thoughts are walking around aimlessly looking puzzled.

And me?

I'm going crazy folding clothes.

let me let me, let me, get what i want

2009-12-18T20:40:00.002+08:00

You changed.

We used to talk everyday. We would take turns to call each other. I remember.

but

You are fading away.

I try to remind myself of the fun we used to have, the jokes we once shared; but the memories slip from my fingers just when I decide to hold on. Our times we had together fall through my hands like sand. I don't want you to go. I don't want to let go.

But you are letting me go too fast. You are pushing me away.

You are slipping away. Far, far away from me. And I don't want you to.

Come back.

Please.

2009-12-18T20:06:00.000+08:00

CHIANGMAI WAS AWESOME.
i feel bad for not elaborating
My parents' lives are a drama. a movie. a predictable movie, but unpredictable life.
I miss Ian

"it's a boy!"

2009-12-09T20:07:00.001+08:00

my heart races each time i think about tomorrow!

p.s.
this blog will NOT be named "It's a girl!", not now, not ever.

so there, alyssa

contains spoilers for 2012!!

2009-12-09T16:38:00.000+08:00

I finally watched 2012. On the big screen! With my parents (who claimed to be doing research. hahah).

I would have liked it if not for the end.

I didn't like that John Cusak's character lived on. I was seriously hoping he would die, just to prove that the show was kind of realistic. But he just HAD to live til the end. Gah.

Other than that, I liked the effects! The crack on the roads, the fire falling from the sky, the crack in the sistine chapel ceiling ( i liked the effects mind you, not whatever it was implying by separating "God's" hand and Adam's ), I like the part where california fell apart and fell into the water --the famous scene used for the 2012 poster.

I really enjoyed the animations and effects. But other than that I didn't like the movie and storyline.

ANYWAY. To my point.

As I watched the movie, I realised (again) how fragile the human life is. If the world DID end in 2012, or 2011, 2010, 3000 or whenever,
will we be selfish?
will we try to hold on to the things we treasure here on earth?
will we be stay with our families?
will we be praying to God to save us?
will we be trying hard to save our lives?
will we be excited to finally be able to see Jesus, and just not care whether we lived or died?

What will we be doing when we find out that the world was going to come to an end? What if the world did end, and not just like the movie? As in, there would be absolutely no way of saving ourselves...

What if? What if?

2012 showed me that people in the world are selfish. They are scared. They are fearful.

Most of all, they need God.

In 2012, many religions were shown. There were Muslims praying in Mecca, there were Catholics who were in their temples and chapels, there were Christians (or those who SUDDENLY became Christians when they realised that the world was going to end) who were praying in their churches.

But who really knew whether they'd be saved or not?

______________

I also noticed that tons and tons of people were desperate. So desperate, that they'd steal, kill and destroy (literally!) just to stay alive. They didn't care who and what they had to go through just to save their lives.
In this way, Oliver Platt portrayed human nature extremely well. My Mum thought he was the best actor in the movie. I think he was the best in the sense that he played his part very well. He showed us all what we may ourselves do if we were in the same position.

2009-12-09T16:22:00.000+08:00

As I was (and of course, still am,) preparing myself for the mission trip to Thailand I had this illustration pop into my mind.

We, the team going, are instruments. Every time there is a team going somewhere for a mission trip everyone will say 'You are the instruments God is going to use...' etc etc.
I know that, but sometimes I have to remind myself too. Sometimes (being honest) I think wow, what if i go [insert place here] and i talk to some people and i bring them to Christ? what if i am the one who brings the most people/children/youth to God? wow, that'd be a really cool thing to tell everyone when i come back...

I know, I know, I sound so conceited and so proud and totally wrong. But you can't deny that you've thought that too! (don't kid yourself!)

So anyways, I suddenly had this image of instruments. As in the piano, the drums, and a hammer! These instruments are never praised for playing a beautiful song or a really cool, awesome solo. Or for repairing a table or chair. Since when have we ever walked up to the piano and said "Hey man! You did an awesome job with that song just now! It was so wonderful! You played great!"

We would obviously compliment the pianist right?

So the same goes with us. We as God's instruments, are only doing God's work. We go out, help people, bring people to the Lord, do colouring with the children, stitch up wounds, give food out to the poor etcetera, and we shouldn't be praised or accept the praise! We may have played the guitar very well, or was extra kind to the children and all that, but God is the one who deserves the praise and glory and respect!

God is the one using us to do His work for His kingdom..

I am so glad I finally noticed it. :D

2009-12-08T16:32:00.002+08:00

the nerd I know is waaaay cooler than you'll ever be.

"jen-nay"-- Forrest Gump

2009-12-07T14:59:00.001+08:00

I saw this on Crystal Cha's blog.here's the post link

It made me fall in love with Forrest all over again. :P

(Reasons why I'd choose Forrest Gump over Edward Cullen.)

1. He's human. (how refreshing!)

2. He's a gozillianaire (in his own words). That means he's ultra rich.

3. He can actually have meals with you (instead of wanting you as the meal)

4. He doesn't have a family wanting to eat you over a paper cut.

5. He doesn't stalk you from behind the bushes and behind walls.

6. He'll never commit suicide 'in the name of love'. On the contrary, he'll live on in the name of love.

7. He'll never bite you (unless you want him to)

8. He'll name all his shrimping boats after you.

9. He'll loyally write letters to you from the middle of a war zone even if you never replied a single one of them.

10. He'll always think you have the voice of an angel, and that you are the most beautiful girl he's ever met.

11. He'll give you his congressional medal of honour (for courage) because the strongest reason he stayed alive and outlived the war was because YOU told home to come back alive.

12. He'll still love you, accept you, welcome you into his home, respect you, care for you, go for long walks with you, even if you just showed up out of the blue one day with no explanation whatsoever after years of silence. And he won' even ask you why or demand an explanation. He'll just love you.

13. He'll bulldoze the house you hated all your life for messing you up.

14. He'll still love you even though you are a neurotic hippie who's addicted to cocaine, sleeps around with men and have AIDS.

15. He'll beat the crap out of any man who ever dares lay a finger on your or hurt you in any way.

16. He'll wait for you patiently to come home to him, even as you run off with some useless man who hits you and doesn't respect you.

17. He'll run across America three times wearing the shoes you bought him. And he'll do it, thinking mostly of you.

18. He'll introduce you to everyone he knows as "My XXX (fill in your name here)"

19. He'll marry you at the very end of your life and take care of you knowing fully well that you're dying soon.

20. He'll love and take care of the son you hid away from him for 8 years and dumped on his lap only after knowing you're dying.

21. He'll bury you under the tree the both of you grew up in, sprinkle fresh flower petals around your grave and talk to you every other day..... for the rest of his life.

2009-12-07T14:49:00.000+08:00

i hate it when people spell my name like this:

Kimberley.

2009-12-07T14:43:00.000+08:00

have i mentioned how awesome God is?

no?

well He is.

2009-12-07T14:42:00.000+08:00

immature people are a lot more fun to hang out with than mature and composed people.

really lahhh.

2009-12-07T14:41:00.000+08:00

For once (or is it twice?) in my life, I feel like I wanna go shopping. Wheeee...

And go on a date... (with my parents)

2009-12-07T14:39:00.002+08:00

It feels great not to be infatuated.

But the side effect is: feeling hungry for fishballs. like almost ALL THE TIME.

2009-12-07T14:38:00.002+08:00

After last night's overdose, I'm REALLY sick of the song 'Bridge over troubled water', and 'Leona Lewis'.

Sorry Pa.

mee-yao

2009-12-06T23:36:00.000+08:00

I've always wondered how a cat felt. Not that I believe in reincarnation and that sorta thing, but I wonder what it's like to have sex and reproduction as your life's purpose.

I wonder about this random subject because I used to watch my previous cats and I noticed that they didn't do much except for hunting, eating, 'napping', and mating. Oh and playing.

If I were a cat, I'd probably be very bored (except for the occasional y'know).

2009-12-04T18:19:00.004+08:00

ChiangMai Mission trip is COMING UP SOON! whoohoo!

I can't wait, and i also kinda dread it. I dread it because I'm nervous and scared because of the things we'll be doing, like doing the skit and going to the village which is on a hill. I'm scared because it may be very cold and I wouldn't be prepared.

On a happier note, the holidays are nearing! I have been waiting for this time since december last year!

Yay!

2009-12-04T18:19:00.003+08:00

I can't blog about what I REALLY REALLY REALLY want to blog about.

hmmpf!

2009-11-20T18:16:00.000+08:00

I like the way you sound in the morning,
We're on the phone and without a warning
I realize your laugh is the best sound I have ever heard

I like the way I can't keep my focus,
I watch you talk you didn't notice
I hear the words but all I can think is
We should be together

Every time you smile, I smile
And every time you shine, I'll shine for you

Whoa oh
I'm feeling you baby
Don't be afraid to jump then fall,
Jump then fall into me

Be there, I'm never gonna leave you,
Say that you wanna be with me too
'Cause I'mma gonna stay through it all so jump then fall

I like the way your hair falls in your face
You got the keys to me
I love each freckle on your face, oh,
I've never been so wrapped up,
Honey, I like the way you're everything I've ever wanted

I had time to think it all over
And all I can say is come closer,
Take a deep breath and jump then fall into me

Every time you smile, I smile
And every time you shine, I'll shine for you

Whoa oh
I'm feeling you baby
Don't be afraid to jump then fall,
Jump then fall into me

Be there, I'm never gonna leave you,
Say that you wanna be with me too
'Cause I'mma gonna stay through it all so jump then fall

The bottom's gonna drop out from under our feet
I'll catch you, I'll catch you
When people say things that bring you to your knees,
I'll catch you
The time is gonna come when you're so mad you could cry
But I'll hold you through the night until you smile

Whoa oh
I'm feeling you baby
Please don't be afraid to jump then fall,
Jump then fall into me

Be there, I'm never gonna leave you,
Say that you wanna be with me too
'Cause I'mma gonna stay through it all so jump then fall Jump then fall, jump then fall into me

every time you smile, I smile
and every time you shine, I'll shine
and every time you're here baby, I'll show you, I'll show you
you can jump then fall, jump then fall, jump then fall into me, into me

i was bored. so my last resort was visiting christen's blog.

2009-11-18T17:57:00.000+08:00

and so i found this tag. she tagged me! haha! so since i am bored, i will do it. :D

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
anytime after 22 and before 40 :D

2.Where will go if someone sponsors your ticket?
ENGLAND (or maybe the U.S.) (actually it depends on who sponsors me)

3.What's your favourite thing to do?
socialize

4.Do you think that money can buy happiness?
maybe.

5.If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?
ummmmm, to have a fair and just government.

6.Do you believe that you can survive without money?
i guess. if it can happen for missionaries, it can happen to me. we have the same God after all :D

7.What are you afraid to lose the most?
my family.

8.If you win 1 million, what would you do?
FIRST! tithes. then i'd make a huge list of the things I would buy.

9.How would you describe the person you like at the moment?
um, er, ah, imaginary?

10.List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
she has a great butt. she's generous. she knows me very well. :)

11.What are the requirements that you wish from the other half?
Christian, not loud, has a low low voice, is funny, is musical.

12.If you could rewind, would you?
maybe... i'll get back to you about that.

13.What's your ambition?
to be a GEEEK. as in a 'big bang theory geek' not just a regular one. haha

14.If you could teleport, where would you go?
I'd go all over the world. but stay away from samuel l. jackson. hahah

15.What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
my life

16.If you could undo doing one mistake in the past, what would it be?
um, throwing the boy's bag out the window?

7.If you have a chance to change, which part of your character would you like to change?
haha, i don't know?

18.What music you have been to listening recently?
blake lewis' album. i don't really like it though...

19.What is the one thing you cannot do but you wish you could?
to have Micahs power (the dude from heroes)

20.Do you love someone with all your heart?
yes.

21. Tag 2 more people.
er. i dunno

hahahaha. i felt like being silly.

2009-11-18T16:26:00.000+08:00

i'm crazy.

2009-11-18T16:24:00.000+08:00

aiyooooooooo. i looooooveeeee this song. sighhhh

I've never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go
Till you open the door
There's so much more
I've never seen it before

I was trying to fly
But I couldn't find wings
Then you came along
And you changed everything

You lift my feet off the ground
Spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier,
Crazier, crazier

Watched from a distance as you
Made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know
How that would feel
And you made it so real

You showed me something that I couldn't see
Opened my eyes and you made me believe

You lift my feet off the ground
Spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier,
Crazier, crazier, oh

Baby, you showed me what living is for
I don't want to hide anymore

You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier,
Crazier, crazier
Crazier, crazier

gee eye joh

2009-11-17T17:38:00.001+08:00

i watched it over the weekend.

1. one word:

channing

2. It was kinda lame. Marcus pointed out that it was like a mixture of

'X-Men(wolverine)',
'Transformers',
'Star wars' (i think)

and Alyssa pointed out that it was a teeeeeeeeeeensy bit like a 'Barbie' movie. :P

3. I didn't love it.

4. Didn't hate it either.

because it's using His name in vain.

2009-11-17T17:30:00.002+08:00

I don't use 'Oh my God'.

I don't use 'OMG' or 'omg'.

Instead (sometimes) I use 'alla' (aka 'allah').

Is it wrong?

don'ttellmeyoudon'tunderstandsarcasm

2009-11-16T22:02:00.000+08:00

I haven't decided whether to write an essay about a gay couple, or a totally cliched and lame story about a (straight) couple eloping.

Hm. I just can't decide which would be more interesting.

creative writing in school

2009-11-14T20:57:00.000+08:00

“How could you do this to me? How could you do this to us? We’re your parents!”

He kept silent. I stood outside the house smoking my last cigarette. It was a feeble attempt to calm myself down. Finally I decided to go into the house. I walked in calmly.

Ben stood, head down, in front of his screaming parents. My heart went out to him.
When they noticed me standing at the doorway of the room, Ben walked over to me. He looked into my eyes and said, “Jeremy, tell them. Tell them that we’re in love.”

cladistics

2009-11-13T16:31:00.002+08:00

Definitions of cladistics on the Web:

S: (n) cladistics, cladistic analysis (a system of biological taxonomy based on the quantitative analysis of comparative data and used to reconstruct cladograms summarizing the (assumed) phylogenetic relations and evolutionary history of groups of organisms)
wordnetweb.princeton.edu/perl/webwn
Cladistics: The International Journal of the Willi Hennig Society is a bimonthly scientific journal publishing research in cladistics. It is published on behalf of the Willi Hennig Society, in honor of Willi Hennig (1913-1976), a German biologist who founded the field. it is in its 23rd volume. ...
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cladistics_(journal)
Cladistics, from the ancient Greek κλάδος, klados, "branch", is the hierarchical classification of species based on phylogeny or evolutionary ancestry. The term phylogenetics is often used synonymously with cladistics. ...
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cladistics
: An approach to biological systematics in which organisms are grouped based upon synapomorphies (shared derived characteristics) only, and not upon symplesiomorphies (shared ancestral characteristics)
en.wiktionary.org/wiki/cladistics
cladistic - Of, relating to, or generated using cladistics
en.wiktionary.org/wiki/cladistic
("clados": branch ): a method of classifying organisms based on shared ancestral and derived characters. ...
faculty.sulross.edu/critzi/invertebrate_glossary.htm
The classification of organisms based on phylogeny.
biology.usgs.gov/genetics_genomics/glossary_c.html
A taxonomic theory by which organisms are ordered and ranked exclusively on the basis of joint descent from a single ancestral species ( ie, on the basis of the most recent branching point of the inferred phylogeny) and in which taxa are delimited by homophyly.
https://www.msu.edu/course/zol/855/f05/systematics_glossary.html
A widely accepted recent phylogenetic method for classifying. It makes assumptions about the primitiveness of a group of plants' characteristics and represents these in a branching diagram (a cladogram). ...
www.swcoloradowildflowers.com/glossary.htm
A system of classification in which the only groups formally recognised are clades. Introduction to cladistics
internt.nhm.ac.uk/eb/glossary.shtml
another name for phylogenetic systematics
www.palaeos.com/Systematics/glossary.html
The practice of classifying organisms based on their phylogenetic relationships and evolutionary history. ...
amonline.net.au/evolutionary_biology/glossary.htm
A method of inferring evolutionary ancestry by methodically comparing possible evolutionary relationships between organisms and selecting as most ...
www.nhm.ac.uk/hosted_sites/pe/2000_1/retinal/gloss.htm
a phylogenetic approach which only admits of bifurcations in lineages (no polytomies or reticulate evolution) and has explicit rules for their derivation
www.nematodes.org/teaching/zoo4/glossary.html
A classification system based on order of evolutionary branching rather than on present similarities and differences.
highered.mcgraw-hill.com/sites/0072549238/student_view0/glossary.html

2009-11-13T16:23:00.000+08:00

okay. Back.

I love school. I know, I sound like a huge bum and probably 90 percent of you are gonna tell me "oh it's just gonna get worse! you may like it now, but just you wait! you'll be hating school when you go along. there'll be tons of homework and you WILL hate school very very soon."

but COME ON! I don't want to think about WHEN I WILL HATE SCHOOL.

Lemme enjoy it while I still can. I think if you say that to me, it just means you're jealous :P

I look forward to school. At night I count the hours til the time I'm allowed to go to sleep. Then when I wake up, I count the hours til it's time to leave the house. :D

gah, i'm just addicted to people xD haha.

Oh! It's going to be the weekend! WHOOHOO!

I've missed Jinyin and Jeremy. And the yaps, and diane, and the tays and MARCUS! ;) hahaha (i haven't seen em since SUNDAY!)

counting the hours man. :D

hiccup

2009-11-13T15:49:00.001+08:00

Wow the days go by so *hiccup* fast!

I still remember *hiccup* my first day of school. My heart beat faster *hiccup* than it'd ever beaten. :P

And to*hiccup*day is the end of the SECOND week! Ah! *hiccup*

Sorry. I had to show you what I was going through. How I HATE *hiccup* hiccups! Argh!! *hiccup* *hiccup*

Be right back. Sorry*hiccup*

i am like this. click it!

2009-11-05T19:48:00.002+08:00

http://iamneurotic.com/2009/11/02/scraped-toes/

http://iamneurotic.com/2009/10/19/nice-warm-chair/

http://iamneurotic.com/2009/10/19/remote-control-bowling-bowl/

http://iamneurotic.com/2009/10/19/cough-vom/

2009-11-05T19:47:00.000+08:00

I know it's kinda irrelevant to my life, but I feel like crying whenever I hear this song.

Silver Threads Among the Gold
(Eben E. Rexford and Hart Pease Danks)

Darling, I am growing old,
Silver threads among the gold
Shine upon my brow today,
Life is fading fast away.
     But, my darling, you will be, will be,
     Always young and fair to me,
     Yes, my darling, you will be,
     Always young and fair to me.

cho: Darling, I am growing old,
     Silver threads among the gold,
     Shine upon my brow today,     ;
     Life is fading fast away.

When your hair is silver white,
And your cheeks no longer bright,
With the roses of the May,
I will kiss your lips and say:
     Oh! my darling, mine alone, alone,
     You have never older grown,
     Yes, my darling, mine alone,
     You have never older grown.

Love can never more grow old.
Locks may lose their brown and gold,
Cheeks may fade and hollow grow,
But the hearts  that love will know
     Never, never, winter's frost and chill,
     Summer warmth is in them still;
     Never winter's frost and chill,
     Summer warmth is in them still.


Love is always young and fair.
What to us is silver hair,
Faded cheeks or steps grown slow,
To the heart that beats below?
     Since I kissed you, mine alone, alone,
     You have never older grown;
     Since I kissed you, mine alone,
     You have never older grown.

2009-10-31T11:32:00.002+08:00

~~I am warning you. This may be my last post for a very long time.~~

I'm gonna NOT homeschooL! whoohoo. i'm a little glad to stop homeschooling. fine, a lot glad.

high five chanelle! haha.

sorry mum, pa, alyssa and ethan ;P

So, I am going to a sorta homeschooling centre. (i hate that term. i prefer a centreschooling centre.)

And I cannot wait! You know why?

Firstly, I don't have to study alone. Meaning I don't have to try and figure out how to do this math problem and figure out what hydro something something is. etcetera.
I can't wait to have a teacher who can explain to me what this and that is. I mean I love my Mum and Pa very much. But they are often busy so can't help me with this and that. Not that they NEVER help me. They do. And they're very helpful. Just that sometimes my Pa is on the phone and my Mum is talking with someone either on the phone or in the counselling room.

I can't always expect them to wait on me 24/7 but I just want help. And I usually need it most of the time. (yes yes, i'm not smart k?)

Secondly! I get new stationery! Enough said. :)

Thirdly! Friends. I get to see more than 7 people everyday when I go to the centre! Whoohoo! Just seeing people is almost enough for ol' extroverted me. haha

Fourthly. Erm, I will be more disciplined! I won't have the chance to be distracted and go lie down suddenly. I really need some discipline. I just hope I can tahan it. I hope I don't get stressed out just cause I have to listen to someone speaking for a whole one hour. Also I hope I don't get annoyed by the stupidest thing. I do that sometimes, by the way. I hope I am friendly enough. I hope I don't make a bad impression of myself on the first day. I know I know, it doesn't REALLY matter. But to me it does. :)

YEAY! I'm done! ~~I just wrote a very long post as my (maybe) last one.~~ Whoohoo!

hope you don't miss me too much ;)

i love her entire outfit and attitude ;P haha

2009-10-30T13:50:00.000+08:00

hilarious (click to enlarge)

2009-10-29T12:18:00.000+08:00

http://i.imgur.com/7yd2M.jpg

2009-10-29T11:56:00.002+08:00

i wanna i wanna i wanna

go for AAR's CONCERT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

man, i am so bummed.

2009-10-28T12:14:00.002+08:00

Big Daddy: Why do you drink so much?
Brick: Gimme another drink and I'll tell you.

2009-10-27T20:55:00.000+08:00

because of ethan, Alyssa and I have been kinda obsessed with this word:

Mendacity.

currently my most played song :D

2009-10-27T20:52:00.000+08:00

And with this Christmas wish is missed
The point I could convey
If only I could find the words to say to let You know how much You've touched my life
Because here is where You're finding me, in the exact same place as New Year's eve
And from a lack of my persistency
We're less than half as close as I want to be

And the first time
That You opened Your eyes did You realize that You would be my Savior
And the first breath that left Your lips
Did You know that it would change this world forever

And so this Christmas I'll compare the things I felt in prior years
To what this midnight made so clear
That You have come to meet me here

To look back and think that
This baby would one day save me
In the hope that what You did
That you were born so I might live
To look back and think that
This baby would one day save me

And I, I celebrate the day
That You were born to die
So I could one day pray for You to save my life

songs stuck in my head

2009-10-27T20:48:00.003+08:00

want you -pixie lott :(

I don't wanna want you, keep telling myself
That I don't want you
But I can't have you
It's crazy
It's getting so hard to stay away from you
But I still miss you
I don't want want you, keep telling myself
That I don't want you

Sunshine-AAR (i love this song)

It's a new day
It's a bright day
Even when you stand in the dark
It's just that
You've been broken into fifty pieces
Today is gone
I'm the only light that you see
You need someone
I know all you needed was me

Everyday we awake if it takes too long
Just tell me something new
Forget about the sunshine when it's gone

Another pale moon
Shines like high noon
Midnight never felt so cold alone
It's just that you're uneasy
When you need me
Today is gone
I'm the only light that you see
You need someone
I know all you needed was me

Everyday we awake if it takes too long
Just tell me something new
Forget about the sunshine when it's gone
You can say it's right, but it feels so wrong
Just show me something true
Forget about the sunshine
Forget about the sunshine when it's gone

Today is gone
I'm the only light that you see
You need someone
I know all you needed was me

Everyday we awake if it takes too long
Just tell me something new
Forget about the sunshine when it's gone
You can think it's right, but it feels so wrong
Just show me something true
Forget about the sunshine when it's gone

Everyday we wake if it takes too long
Just tell me something new
Forget about the sunshine when it's gone
You can think it's right, but it feels so wrong
Just show me something true
Forget about the sunshine when it's gone

You can think it's right, but it feels so wrong
Just show me something true
Forget about the sunshine
Forget about the sunshine when it's gone

i love this verse.

2009-10-27T19:49:00.000+08:00

this verse is very appropriate for me right now. :D

God is more than awesome.

Lamentations 3:37 (New Living Translation)
³⁷ Who can command things to happen
without the Lord’s permission?

I wish i could fake my own suicide. for real. that'd be awesome

2009-10-24T12:07:00.000+08:00

So I've made up my mind
I will pretend
To leave this world behind
And in the end
You'll know I've lied
To get your attention
I'm faking my own suicide

I'm faking my own suicide
Because I know you love me
You just haven't realized
I'm faking my own suicide
They'll hold a double funeral
Because a part of you will die
Along with me

Wish you thought that I was dead
So rather than me
You'd be depressed instead
And before arriving at my grave
You'd come to the conclusion
You've loved me all your days
But it's too late
Too late for you to say

Because I'm faking my own suicide
Because I know you love me
You just haven't realized
I'm faking my own suicide
They'll hold a double funeral

Because a part of you will die
Along with me

I'll write you a letter that
You'll keep
Reminding you your love for me
Is more than six feet deep
...
...
...

Right about that time
Is when I come back to life
And let you know
I'd let you know (whooaa)

I was faking my own suicide
Because I know you loved me
You just never realized
I was faking my own suicide
I'll walk in that room and
See your eyes open so wide
I've been so lost
Because you know
Because you know
You will never leave my sight (you will never leave my sight)
Until the day that I die for the first time (until I die for the first time)
And we'll laugh, yeah we'll laugh
And we will cry
So overjoyed with the love
That saved my life
Our love is so alive